Make room for thoughts…. Allow space for truth…

        I was thinking of how i changed physically in just a blink of an eye. I used to be quite fit or slim and then now i gained a few kgs ( i’m just trying to be modest by saying ‘a few’). All of these happened after architecture. Funnily, everyone seemed to slim down due to the stress or irregular meals. However, i’m the odd one out. Haha. Maybe i eat more, coz maybe eating makes me feel good? Duno…. but i like to eat. I used to be a small eater, then i went to college and saw everyone eating one full plate of rice. I think from then on, there’s no turning back for me. Lol! Plus i don’t exercise nowadays. I can’t even remember when was the last time i went to the gym. At first i was thinking of posting pictures of me pre college and now. But even i can’t stand my body pictures ( i would post my body pictures if i slim down again, hehe) so i was thinking of putting my face pictures. Then i realised my face pictures don’t really show the transformation ( my cheeks are chubbier but can’t really see ). However i realised i can see hairstyle transformation and the face transformation in two years. The overall look i mean. So here goes……….

        This was taken in 2004 in my form 4 class party. I grabbed this photo from one of my friends in friendster. I was like " Ehhhhh, is this me?" Coz i don’t remember myself looking like this. The girl in the pic is so…… innocent. Haha

     Me in Korea in 2005. The holidays after SPM.

      This pic is taken in August 2006 ( Activities week in the Keris Centre)

     I was in Taiwan holidaying with my family. It was in December 2006.

This was taken in March 2007 in cousin’s wedding dinner. I was wearing a tube dress ler…..don’t think serong…hehe

Me recently in KLPac for Screwed. It was in April 2007. I just cut my hair also. I like both me in long and short hair.

     When i see myself in these years, i feel like i have grown older in the case of looks. Plus i think i lost my youthful, worry-free smile. It’s just a different kind of smile now. And i looked much more happier in photos before college.Haiz…….. I was slimmest when i went to Korea. Then everything was different when college started. By the way, some of the pics are very low in quality, coz i tried cutting the size of the pic so that just big enough for my head and face from adobe photoshop. And i’m not dat gud in it also…..So yea, hehe.

     It’s "Shopain" ! Lol!!! I have been pronouncing the greatest pianist name wrongly for quite some time! Aiseh…. Well i think at least better than ‘chop-pin’!Hehe

    Heard the name ‘Shopain’ from Yundi Li. But the interviewer said ‘ Shopaine’……Confused. Maybe it’s a mixture of Shopine and Shopain??? By the way, his interview (recorded) gave me better understanding of Chopin. Thanks!

  Check out this website if u wana hear the interview

http://www.npr.org/templates/dmg/popup.php?id=9452318&type=1&date=08-Apr-2007&au=1&pid=43156255&random=5643341271&guid=000834C2E78E06103B5BC08361626364&uaType=WM,RM&aaType=RM,WM&upf=Win32&topicName=Music&subtopicName=Classical_Music&prgCode=WESUN&hubId=-1&thingId=9451775&mtype=WM

Have you ever felt lonely in a crowd of people that you know?

Have you ever cried to a song?

Have you ever felt frustrated why you don’t have the talent in something like anybody else?

Have you ever had the feeling that everyone doesn’t trust you anymore?

Have you ever wished you knew a person better?

Have you ever realised how fake some people were?

Have you ever understood their feelings, stopped and listened to their heart’s voice instead of passing judgement like you knew them better than they did themselves?

Have you ever realised how one wrong step in the decisions you make or things you do will eventually ruin your life and that there’s no turning back?

Have you ever wonder is it that beautiful and amazing to be always standing on top of a mountain and look down on the things around you, knowing that you have reached the peak and what’s the next thing to do?

Or have you wonder is it better to always struggle down there, wanting to reach the highest point of the mountain like those who did it, knowing that you have a purpose in life and that you have someone to look up to?

Have you ever wonder what happens when you accidentally slipped or fell from the highest point to the lowest just like everybody?

Have you ever wonder how would you feel, what would you do? Will you climb back up again or let the rest of your life go by in thoughts of regrets like how you accidentally fell. Although you know you can’t prevent an accident to happen.

Have you ever wonder would you be happy when you see someone from above fell and reach your level?

Have you ever wonder whether you’ll feel happy by just reaching half of the mountain high?

Have you ever wonder whether you’ll be satisfied with what you have and where you are?

Have you ever thought of being the best by beating everyone else and put on your proud face?

Have you ever felt so happy by beating others and the feeling of success makes you talk and laugh louder? Or are you like that all the time?

Have you ever wonder what’s the purpose of living when you struggle for your whole life and you see other people indulging in parents wealth?

Have you ever wonder how you have dreams so big and you feel that you can become what you aspire to be but in reality you are so far from it and you’ll never get there?

Have you ever wished you knew the answers to all questions?

Or have you ever wished you don’t know the answers to all the questions so that you can search for them as you know you’ll learn better?

Have you ever wished that people were not so realistic and materialistic?

Have you ever thought of running away from home?

Have you ever thought of ending your life before your loved ones end theirs because it’s so painful to witness their hardships battling with their illness and knowing that they’ll be gone although you know your act will be selfish?

Have you ever wonder how your life will be without your loved ones? Without their presence, support, laughter, sadness, advises?

Have you ever hated guys?

Have you ever wonder why guys exist when most of the time they create problems?

Have you ever wonder why girls get picked on when they are doing the opposite sex’s professions?

Have you ever been invisible?

Have you  ever not have the chance of participating anything in class even when you raised your hand when the teachers ask for volunteers?

Have you ever not chosen because you are either not popular, not known by the teachers, not as capable as other people ( and that is because you were not given the chance to do anything) ?

Have you ever felt angry why other people get so many chances in their lives and you are always not given opportunities?

Have you ever wonder why some people has the natural qualities that everyone is looking for?

Have you ever wonder maybe these people are nurtured since young by their families? So do you blame yours?

Have you ever wonder whether you’ll get your rewards?

Have you ever felt being quiet is wrong ?

Have you ever felt you are not as good as other people when it comes to talking?

Have you ever thought some people are naturally this way?

Have you ever felt it’s so unfair that you don’t give them a chance because of this?

Have you ever felt when you want to come out of your shell and speak when you want to, you say the wrong things?

Have you ever felt people are ignoring you or ignoring what you said because you are not as interesting?

Have you ever give a damn to the quiet and low self esteem guy beside you?

Have you ever thought that one day he’ll be better than you in many ways?

Have you ever thought maybe how you ignore him will make him end up miserably in his life?

Then have you ever thought how you’ll feel by not letting everyone have their equal chances and let some of them keep their emotions or anger inside ?

Have you ever appreciate everyone?

Have you ever tried to talk to those who were shy?

Have you ever wonder maybe they’d like to talk to you but don’t have the guts?

Have you ever wonder maybe you can be the one who breaks the ice instead of just blaming that they always shut their mouth?

Have you ever thought that good teachers are those who let everyone have a go at everything instead of letting those good ones participate in competitions so that the chance of winning is higher?

Have you ever tried to look strong but you were actually weak?

Have you ever felt intimidated by those stronger than you?

Have you ever felt bad that you are not cool enough?

Have you ever felt small because you can’t take criticisms well?

Have you ever tried to learn to take them well and then found that you have less self worth or love yourself less?

Have you ever wonder is it wrong to be different? To not like the samething as others?

Have you ever cried silently but painfully on your own bed at night?

Have you ever wonder when you were crying, what were those people you were crying for doing?

Have you wonder ……….

Maybe what you wonder is different from what i ever thought, felt, wished or wonder……

but try not to think you are always right

try not think something as right or wrong (black or white)

it can be right or wrong in different situations, perception with different people with different time or needs…….

this world doesn’t revolve around you

  I was searching for yundi li’s cd and i found this deutche grammophon website for yundi li. And there’s this guestbook for people to leave their message to yundi li (but i’m not sure whether yundi will read or not). But anyways, there are so many fans that left messages for him and there’s this gal who is very passionate about him that i think no one can compete with her. I’m not discriminating her or anything. Juz wana show that alot of people admire yundi and his talents and wants to meet him. And i’m not the worst ok? Aha! hehe

http://www.deutschegrammophon.com/artistmicrosite/?ART_ID=LIYUN

NaomiWong Australia 20.01.2007

Dear Yundi, I have loved and admired you deeply for so many years now. I never knew I could leave a message for you here until yesterday. Actually, I searched the internet for 3 days and 3 nights for a place where I could leave you a message, and somehow found this site! I was really, really happy and spend the whole of today thinking what I should say to you! I know that you might never ever read this, but even with 0.00001% chance, I still want to try! Ever since I saw you on television in the year 2000 playing Chopin’s concertos, I’ve been crazily in love with you and your music. I thought you were EXTREMELY CUTE AND HANDSOME!!! At that time, I was only 12 years old but I was so amazed and touched by your excellence that I begged my parents to let me learn the piano. 7 years later, I have just turned 19 now, which is how old you were when you rose to fame and the whole world was stunned by the sound of your name and your music. Now, I always wonder how you felt when you were 19 years old and the whole world suddenly fell in love with you. When you played the piano for the world to hear, inside your heart, I wonder if you felt confident or happy or nervous or worried or excited. After all, you were just a 19-year-old boy, and now I am a 19-year-old girl wondering what it would have felt like for you. I can’t decide whether I love you or Chopin more. Everyday, I listen to your music, whether I’m in class or at home or working or playing or studying or reading or even in the shower! Every night, I hum your music to myself to fall asleep, and in my dreams, I’m watching you play your grand piano up on the concert stage, silently admiring you in the distance. During my unhappiest years of being a teenager, your music would help me to smile, to cry, to sleep and to learn. Even as I am writing you this message, your Chopin Piano Concert Op.11 2nd Mv (Romanze) is playing on my computer. There is something SO SO SO beautiful about you, do you know that? The sheer sensation of watching you sitting up high on the concert stage, tinkling your lovely little tinkles, your hands dancing and frolicking with the music, your fingers tickling and caressing the piano keys – the sensation is just so PERFECTLY beautiful! Some people criticise you, but to me, you are flawless. Even if you made a mistake, I wouldn’t know. I would have already been spellbound by the majestic beauty of your hands and the irresistible charm of your face. My whole bedroom is full of posters and images of you, so that I can always look into your eyes and admire your handsome face and cute smile. My biggest wish is to meet you one day! I really want to hear you play in person, but I live in Australia, and you never come to Australia. For 7 years, I have listened to you on my CD player, watched you on my television screen, and me you in my dreams. I wonder if, one day, my dreams really would come true. I wish I could hold your beautiful hands, even just for a moment. In that moment, I would be able to feel those hands which are not only beautiful, but talented, gentle, magical and reaches into your heart. Please never stop playing piano, Yundi. As a musician, you are my friend. As a pianist, you are my brother. And as a man, you are the man of my dreams. You have no idea how much you make my heart beat and how many times you have made me smile. Take care of yourself, be happy and continue to fill the world with your beautiful music. I love you! Forever your’s, Naomi Wong.

Oh man,I think he shud marry her ler….. Haha. Does he realise that there are so many people crazy about him??

    Haha. This is a list of things that want to do in my lifetime. Some are crazy and some seems err…. unattainable. But nothing is impossible rite? haha. Must get the word ‘impossible’ out of my dictionary.ok, ready? get set! GO!!!!

1. Go to Yundi Li’s concert and meet him in person. (haha, i noe. So predictable that u’ll smirk! lol)

2. Be an exchange student for a YEAR to any country…. (but if i am able to choose, i wana go to Europe)

3. Travel around the world with no limitation of time and flow of cash! Or maybe i can just backpack. But i must got to Poland! (Chopin’s birthplace ;p)

4. do a dance performance ( duno for wat kind of event..hehe)

5. learn sexy samba!

6. open a studio and invite artists of all sorts (eg. painters, architects, dancers, singers, photographers, graphic designers, craftsmen….) to display their works and share ideas. A place to nurture the younger generations that enjoy arts. It’ll be a place for exhibitions, events, recitals, performance…..Plus, there’ll be a cafe where chefs can experiment with flavours and food while the visitors can become guinea pigs! And those aspire to become chefs can learn from the sifus. Basically it’s a place for gaining and exchanging knowledge. A place where everyone is welcomed.It’ll be a travel hotspot for foreigners! Hey, maybe i shud join the nescafe kickstart! OMG, i’m excited with this! I wana make this come true!

7. Help the underprivilleged by donating or do voluntary work

8. wear bikini at the beach ( most probably not in Malaysia)

9. go camping with friends and enjoy the nature. go up the mountains and under the sea…….

10. do some paintings in the nature

11.try all kinds of food ( i mean Mexican, Scandinavian, Sri Lankan…….and eat until i poo!)

12. get to know the culture of every country

13. SKIING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i must do that again!

14. Cruise to Alaska (Polar bears! Penguins!)

15. own a branded bag ( at least have one)

16. Have a TV show about art, architecture and living. I’ll be the host that travels all around the world and experience the art, food and living in other countries and at the same time educate the viewers about the architecture ( basically bringing what’s in the book to life)! OMG, i like this idea too….

17. design BUILDINGS!!!!! Be it galleries, museums, residential buildings or communal places!

18. buy a big plot of land, build my house there and next to it is my studio (refer no 6.) preferable near the beach and hills

19. Interview great architects! Tadao Ando….is he still alive?

20. buy a beautiful island and build chalets ,  have great facilties (like club med), watersports, breathtaking sunrise and sunset……OMG

21. Ooooo, it’s better if my house and studio are in the island!

22.  Man, i can really dream. I realised it all comes down to MONEY! So first of all i nid alot alot alot alot alot alot of MONEYYYYYYYY! haha

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

When the road you are trudging seems all up hill,

When funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile but you had to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must but don’t quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,

As everyone of us sometimes learn,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won had he stuck it out,

Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,

You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,

It seems to a faint and struggling man,

Often the struggler has given up,

When he might have captured the victors cup,

And he learned too late when the night slipped down,

How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver tent of the clouds of doubts,

And you can never tell how close you are,

It may be near when it seems afar,

So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit,

It’s when things seem worst that you musn’t quit.

A quitter never wins and a winner never quits!

   Uncertainties ahead of me… I realised they were all uncertainties, don’t know whether it’s right or wrong, whether it’s worth the tears, sweat, time and sleepless nights or not, don’t know whether it’s enough anot, don’t know what will come out of it, don’t know whether it’s how i want it to be……these are the uncertainties. Well, what to do? I can only brave the uncertainties with strong hopes and dreams. But not knowing all these scares me. It is indeed the final project, the one that determines almost everything. I felt like i know it, feel it, hear it, and see it, but the thing is i duno whether i can realise it. Plus, seeing other ‘houses’ always make me feel that mine is not enough or too simple. Maybe that’s how it should be?

      ’Simplicity is an essential quality of good design and it is one of the most complicated things in life’….hmmm….true you know. It’s not easy to make a simple thing because you always come up with complicated stuff when you are not satisfied.

        By the way, i went for the Social Awareness Club meeting today. And guess what, i’m now a representative for SABD students! Hahahaha. SAC is still lack of members i guess. When i told them that i’m doing architecture, they all look at me like errr ’surprise’ coz maybe archi students are always busy and don’t have the time to join societies. Btw, the funniest part is after the meeting, one of the teacher advisors Ms Rosaline and other members gave a hand of applause to me coz i ‘take the time to go for the meeting and for my initiative and all and my presence……’. Lol! Anyways, they are planning for a trip to kuala selangor to see fireflies on the 16th of june and a charity gala dinner at the end of this year or the beginning of next year and they are planning to have a forum of their own. Somehow, they seem kinda clueless ( or not that experienced) in running an organised meeting , in how to get all the members to attend meetings, in planning activities. I think we need the mighty Miss Yong from UBK in CHS to take charge! Haha. miss those days when Wei Hsiang, Vivian, E Ting, Jac Kee, Jun Keen, Wan Xin, Yan Ru, Sze Wan and me (and of course the juniors) work hand in hand in organising events like the edufair ( i got my experience of calling the Unis), camps ( those fun times!), after PMR programs for the students ( like visiting royal mint, colleges…….), seminars and talks, Books fair …… I learnt to write minutes of meetings, emcee a bit for edufair, learn about the various colleges and universities,calling the unis, got to know some of the counsellors from sunway uni and others, design the society’s t-shirt, lead a group of people, be patience with the all mighty and must act fast with my own wits. Plus avoid getting scolded by all mighty. They always say i look like an innocent kesian gal that the discipline teacher don’t dare to tegur me. What the?

       Those days in UBK were really fun although sometimes might get hectic, but it was a good experience throughout. Learning to work with others, facing different types of people. Those two years made me grow up without me noticing. College made me grew alot too. I’m much more open minded and better in taking criticisms nowadays.

       I don’t know why i’m just getting more addicted to blogging these days. I think it’s a medium for pouring my thoughts, heart and soul out. Hehe.

     I wanted to do so many things these days…that i feel like i need to make a list. You know, lists like ‘30 things i want to do before i reach 30′…most of the things i have in mind are either outrageous or i know i can’t accomplish or just feel like giving up even when thinking. By the way, i’m not making a list today, this post serves as a reminder for me to make a list. Lol!

      Anyway, back to reality… These are the things i want to do or at least try in 2007 or just the first half of 2007( don’t look so far ahead first! haha)

     1.  Go to the Social Awareness Club meeting tomorrow! I must not let work be my obstacle to help people and make the world a better place! ;p

    2. Give my best to my last studio 1 project ( okla, at least i say i will try…hehe) Chopin, Yundi help me!!!!

   3. Study for PPP, services and construction 2 not last minute-ly ( i’m not very good with tests nowadays, my mid term tests were not good ler)

  4. Join a design/architecture competition! I know, i know…..Dream On (said to self: aiya… at least give a try lar…for exposure only, don’t hope to win at all but I don’t even know 3D Max and those high tech things. How ar?) ‘ Follow the impossible’ as Daniel Libeskind would say. Anyway, there are some international competitions for individual/TEAMS that are very interesting. Check out :

   http://www.art-city.ca/websiteNEW.pdf

   http://space-prize.com/architect/eng/entry_01.asp

Anyone interested? Ash? Jun Hao? Cheryl? Rach?……No one then i oso don’t want to join…..memalukan diri sendiri ….

   5. Buy formal clothes for studio 1 presentation! First impression counts, so it’s important to be well dressed. Time for shopping!

   6. Figure out the space, openings for my house and think of a material for the final one.

    7. Hone my photoshop skills for the portfolio thingy. My graphic quite weak ler….aiseh

   8. Enrol in a dancing school to learn either hip hop/ jazz ( but i’m always a NATO - No Action Talk Only)

  9. Find a part time job for the holidays.

  10. Read more books esp on architecture.

11. I think i should really consider keeping my mouth shut….coz most of the time i don’t know what i’m talking about and i shouldn’t rush paople when they are presenting coz they are not able to present properly and i can’t present properly when in a rush too. I thought we must finish in 10 minutes time. Sorry guys.

Ok, out of the to do list topic, I like my short hair now!!!! makes me look younger i guess and not sleepy and sloppy like last time. Plus i like the edginess and versatility of short hair. It’s weird if you wear big earrings but i think it’ll be cool. Plus a pair of big shades and a cool beret….aiseh….Cheryl, i’m still blaming you for the shades! I won’t blame you anymore if you get me Yundi Li ( the real person, not cd or vcd)! hahahaha

You know you’re an architecture student when…

…you know the janitors by name. (erm security guard counts? Mr Nava?)

…You total up 3 meals of the day to your breakfast.

…you hear the same song on the radio 3 or more times in one night.

… You can stay alive without sunlight, communicate with people nor having foods but you would commit suicide if the plotter doesn’t plot your work out ( or rather the printer for now)

…You’ve lost your house key and u realized week later

…you sleep more than 16 hrs at weekends

…you spend more time in studio than in your own bed.

…your parents are complaining that you’re not having enough fun.

…you see showering as a waste of time.

…you’ve ever dreamt about your models. ( this is so true)

…upon hearing ’supermodel’, you think of a nicely crafted-foam core model.

…your parents have more of a social life than you.

…your 17-year-old brother who is having SPM this year has more of a social life than you. (definitely)

  …your friends get more sleep in one night than you do in one week.

…the streetlights turn off.

..You consider 3AM an early night.

…sleeping sounds appealing.

…you’re out on Friday nights in studio.

…the only building on campus with its lights on is your studios’.

…you say "It’s only midnight- I have plenty of time to finish."

…you want to strangle your classmate because she said she stayed up late studying/ doing models.

…you slice your finger, and the first thing you think of is if you’ll be able to finish your model.

…you understand why architects have glasses and white hair

…You call some great architects as if they are you friends. err… Frank… Tadao…Mies…

…you know all of these are true, no exaggerations.

…you can listen to all your CD’s in one night.

…certain songs remind you of studio.(more like certain projects)

…you change the style of music to country coz u r fed up with POP

…Mom’s favorite brand names are MNG Esprit etc… But yours are Mastex, Staedtler, pentel, rotring

…you dare not to have a gf/bf coz no one can accept for what u are (more like lack of time)

…you can conceptually compose the food on your plate.(haha)

…upon hearing ‘Weekends’ you think of sleep. 

…you start wearing all black. ( kinda true…not all black but prefer black now)

…you have no life, and admit it. …

you start to critique a radio selection’s selection of songs.( hahahaha….more like EVERYTHING)

…you bring your friends to studio to keep you company.

…you confuse today and tomorrow.

…you can write a 6-page term paper by procrastinating. 

…"respect", "coolness’, and "hatred" are all based on how much sleep you get, or lack of.

…you start using words your instructor uses.

…concept of time is not forward, but a countdown from the time a project is due ("What time is it?""4 hours ’till").

…you contemplate suicide 3 times a day. …you contemplate dropping your major 3 times a day. (not really, unless i have more problems, no solutions and Time is running out, then i”l think about it)

…doing models all night long excites you. (er…depends)

…They can always have more construction lines.

…you have sent messages on aim to another jackass architecture student in the same room as you are .

…you spend more time in studio than with your family.

…"scoring" involves an X-Acto blade

…a break consists of moving your car. (haha…reminds me of the xmas train time) 

….the day has 2 sunrises.

….when you tell people you major in "architorture"

…U can’t draw without listening to music! * nod head furiously*

…when someone says "icon" and you think of Louis I. Kahn.

…when someone says "eye candy" and you think of gratuitous details on a building.

…when you use words like "gratuitous".

…when you have to use spellchecker to see if you spelled "gratuitous" right.

… When you’re not sure what day of the week it is ( Aha..)

… When you have slept straight through a day and into the next day after a final review

… When lack of sleep makes you feel and act as if you are high (makes me go crazy and out of my mind)

… When any flat surface is seen as a place to take a nap (table)

… When a relationship with an upperclassman seems like a good idea because they might be able to help you on your project … When a relationship with an underclassman seems like a good idea because their final review is before yours and therefore, they can help you produce once they are finished (ooo, maybe i can consider about it now..lol)

… When the books that you read consist primarily of photographs and not so much of words

… When you have three or more alarm clocks in your room.

… When cutting yourself with an x-acto seems like a good idea because it will give you an excuse for not having finished your work (it came across my mind b4…haha)

… When you go to studio and spend more time socializing than doing work …

When you have big enough balls to tell a critique that they are wrong …

When professors for courses outside of the architecture school are lenient once they are aware you are an architecture student.

… When you tell someone in another school that you are architecture major and they automatically assume you have no social life

….And worst of all, you are scared of deadlines

( the list is very long but i chose those that happened to me or is happening now or crossed my mind before….teehee!)

      Went to Mid Valley yesterday….Walked for three hours….until my toes cramped(seriously, i think i’m getting old…NOooooo!)……coz wearing heels…..Cheryl bought jeans and blouse…..rach bought 4 pairs of earrings……i saw a nice orange and black velvety sling bag handmade from Pakistan that i wanted to buy but didn’t want to take money from my own pocket……so instead i bought hair accessories to satisfy myself. Aiseh……Then we watched Meet The Robinsons! At the beginning was quite boring…until the dinosaur appeared where it supposed to help the Bowler Hat guy to capture Lewis(main character). BUt Lewis ran to a corner where the dinosaur wasn’t able to catch him, so the dinosaur( T-rex) said to the Bowler Hat " Master, my head is too big and my arms too short.I can’t reach him. It is not a well thought plan master" when Bowler head guy asked T-rex why he can’t capture Lewis. Gek sei bowler guy.Damn funny(especially t-rex’s voice)! Later after movie we were laughing about it, then rach came up wif something like this….. " My hands are too big, and my house x model is too small, i can’t reach inside!" Hahahahah. Then i added " It’s not a well thought plan Mr Kid!"

          Rachel! U always make me laugh nonstop with ur " i’m calling from my house…..pretty boys, hot guys, Short cirKID( u noe what i mean ; p)….. random nonsense….. wedding gowns…..’why cannot photostat?(TE2)…..have like 11 chidren next time to form a football team…..your addiction to Princess Hours and Prince Yul (worse than me) and many more".

Aiseh….those days in car drving to and fro coll!

           Anywayz, there’s this motto from Meet The Robinsons : Keep Moving Forward! And they celebrate failures! U’ll learn alot if you fail but not much if you don’t. Plus, only with failures, u’ll succeed! Keep trying and DON’T GIVE UP!

hesaid, SHEsaid :

           " We let ourselves be tempetd with fame and the glitter of popularity….The risk becomes greater when you start repeating formulas, when you stop competing against yourself. When you lose authencity. When you don’t rely on your own feelings. When you let yourself be absorbed in the outer world, and you lose contact with your inner world."    Shakira

                My own philosophy: ‘Architects are the artists for the society’. Know what i mean? Artists paint and express their feeling and show them to the world. Architects build buildings for the people, it’s like painting people’s expressions, people’s needs, painting the globalisation of the world, the future…Wow, it actually came out of nowhere, just this instance of typing…..

                 Somethings cannot be undone and will not be the same anymore. It’ll be in the memories of those present. Letting yourself down is one thing. letting others down is another.

                 I realised the name of my blog is really suitable. Unpredictable. Yea, it really is. Also, i didn’t think long and hard for it. It just came out of nowhere again. Like my first sketch of my mask, like my first attempt for my shelter model, like my first try of making House X a la Frank Gehry style. It scared me though….(don’t wana write about it here, personal passive thoughts…hehe).

                By the way, the other unpredictable thing is….drumrolls please….i’m listening to piano music!!!!! I remembered how i hated piano, didn’t want to go for classes, practice or see the strict teachers everytime. I cried during one lesson also coz the teacher pulled my ear and scolded me. I always thought’ Why are they so hard on me??? It’s just piano! And i thought i was the least favousite student of all time’.So i quit piano ( and i got nagging and scolding for like my whole teenage years) and sold the piano in the end (more scolding). Then came Architecture,the came Semester 3, then came Design Studio 1, then came final project House X, then came my character piano teacher , then came Chopin, then came Fantasie Impromptu, Nocturne, then came Yundi Li, then came La Campanella……

                   Then i’m addicted to Chopin’s musical composition and YUNDI LI!!!!!!! Then i’m listening to piano music everyday. I think piano techers should teach us about the history of classical music, about people like Chopin, their feelings, expressions, take us to concerts, let us watch piano concert vcds…..educate us in a proper way lar, not just scold and pull people’s ears. Although i noe they want to discipline us. I’m so attracted to Chopin and Yundi LI is because of their expression and feeling when they are playing the piano or just the composition. I mean when i watch yundi li playing the piano, he’s so full of passion and serious, eager to tell the world the story of Chopin. He made piano music so beautiful, like heaven to the souls, so impressive. By watching the movement of his fingers on the piano keys….it’s just amazing how fast and smooth he can play. When is Yundi coming to Malaysia??????? I wana go! He’s young, talented and decent looking, shy ( but not while playing piano) and sensitive…..aiseh…..