Make room for thoughts…. Allow space for truth…

I feel that my brain is so absorbed. I can’t think of anything else other than the project. It’s all crammed up in my head. Due to this, i am paying less and less deserved attention to other subjects. I feel so guilty……. i used to listen attentively in class and take down notes. Nowadays, it’s either i day dream or i think about my project again. There seems to be no solutions but problems for my project, and in my sleep, i kept thinking about my project. And when i woke up, i feel so restless…….It’s so crammed up in my head, it’s like many bees keep buzzing in my brain. I’m about to have a big headache soon. So tonight, i’m going to study one of my other subject and not think about my project for just one night. But time is running out. My birthday wish this year? I wish i can sleep in for the whole day than going to Port Dickson to build my project. I’d rather skip my own birthday……..

I’m really unsure about things these days. I dunno whether what i intend to do can be successful or a failure. And i really dunno whether it’s possible to make the impossible possible…..or just realising what i dreamt of. However, something tells me to stick to it, to have faith in it, to make it possible. Well, there’s solutions to any problems no matter what, so….. i guess i need to think more and be patient…but unfortunately time is running out. I feel my heart and soul in it…..it represents me. It’s me in a whole package, which is really scary. I think that’s why i need to make it possible. Well, i can change it in the very last minute ( there are voices in my head kept telling me to give up and i’ll sleep better)…..but that’s not what i intend to do. I have so many doubts while doing, thinking whether changing it will look or perform better….however in the end i chose to stick to the original. Coz it first came out without much hesitation n deep thoughts. Maybe the more simple it is, the best. For all the times i ‘loh sang’, i wished that my dream will come true and that i can make it happen. I just really want to do my very best and totally have no intentions to beat the rest. I believe everyone will come up with something that really represents themselves, coz mine is nothing high tech, but something that is really me.