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To all of my friends and family!

     I just finished reading Where Rainbows End by Cecelia Ahern.Although most of the people i noe already read this book before, i’m going to talk about it anyway.It’s a best friends-turned-more -than -best friends relationship between a boy and a girl.They only got together as lovers when they were 50, which was quite sad but a happy ending anyway. I am not going to talk about the love story that happened between them coz i find that the contents in love novels are a bit unreal.I was intrigued by the phrase the main character Rosie Dunne said, ‘ What you are does not define you but is what you do’. It kept me thinking for quite a long time and i felt that what she said is right. Who cares if you are kind hearted or intelligent if you do not show it and keep it all to yourself? Who has the time to stop and look at you or be around you to notice the good qualities you have (except for friends not strangers)? They just want to see the results! Just like in secondary school, college, at home or in the society! Nobody wants to look what’s inside, they just want to see what’s on the surface. Strangers look at you if you are pretty, good looking or have a great fashion sense.In secondary school, teachers do not care if you know how to draw, or cook, or take care of your brothers and sisters or even willing to sacrifice or learn to share.Coz they all care about what’s on your result slip.Is it wrong that i have less interest in Chemistry and more in other things? I find it impossible to score for subjects that i have 0 interest in. At home, actions definitely speak louder than words and what’s hidden in my mind or heart.It’s better for me to fulfill all my parents orders obediently than trying to have a reasoning with them, which always end up with them being angry and me being defensive and i still have to obey their orders. They think i can’t take criticisms coz i’ll get mad when they say something that i don’t like to hear and start arguing.And then they’d go ‘How can you be an architect if you are like this?’Damn…As if all architects are robots and not humans with feelings.In society, people will only acknowkledge you if you are Nicol David or Ken Yeang. ‘What you are does not define you but what you do’ is totally true! Well, back to Where Rainbows End. The difference between this novel with other normal ones is that you are reading letters, greeting cards, chat-room printouts, faxes and scribbled notes of Rosie Dunne (the main character) with her loved ones, family and friends. Rosie took all the letters , cards and notes out and read them, she relived all the memories with the people she loved that has come and gone.She was able to read the thoughts of her dead parents, her best friend-turned - lover, her daughter etc. I realised that nothing can turn back or freeze time. When you miss a person, you will look at his/her photos.If you want to remember how that person sound like, you just have to read what he/she wrote to you. You’ll suddenly feel that you are close to them again and that they are always in your heart no matter where they are in this world.We people of 21st century seldom write but blog or sms. my friends and i used to exchange chinese new year cards and xmas cards when we were in school, but now we don’t do that anymore and i don’t even hear from some of them since last year. I’m going to give birthday cards and force them to keep the cards till they are old.muahaha!                                             

     If i’m studying overseas, i’m going to email often to my family and print out their emails. Well i like to complain about my family and other things sometimes but i always put my family on the first place. I love them too much that i hate to think of the day they are not here anymore.Every child feel safe if he/she knows that his/her mother is somewhere out there watching them.I went to a wedding last night.

     The groom was 21 years old while the bride was only 18. God knows they get married coz the wife got pregnant. I hope i don’t do anything wrong that changes my plans for the next ten years of my life.I met a (sort of) aunt( in the wedding dinner) whose son just completed his degree in Architecture in Australia. Well, i think it’s more of a warning than an advice she gave me (after hearing what she said, some might want to quit architecture). She told me that architecture is way harder than i expected so i have to be prepared.She also said that lecturers don’t always agree with your ideas even though you thought yours is the best.Coz of this you might fail a certain subject.i also heard that there’s a archi student in a uni in Aus that did not have that 4 marks to pass and get his degree.In the end, he has to repeat the year again. I know that the standards in Australian unis are higher now especially architecture( what more with other people around the world studying there <international kind of competition>). i also found out from that aunty that the Aus uni has changed its system and that archi students can study there after only 2 years in M’sia.Whaaaatttt???!!!! I’m going to study here for 3 years to complete my diploma and move on to degree for another 3 years.I heard from a friend’s mom that her niece didn’t study that long 4 archi and she has worked in a firm in Singapore after graduating and she’s now studying Masters in UK.Sounds damn fast to me……..

     I didn’t realise that i wrote a long essay already. there’s just alot in my mind.Glad to take the things off from messying my mind. I’m going to start my internship after sem 3 (it’s not a must but i’m going to do it anyway). I would love to work in GDP coz i like their work A LOT! My driving skills are slowly improving…Ashley taught me autocad to get ready for next sem! She’s an angel and a teacher to me coz she always teach me things! Thanks if you are reading this!   

     It’s 1st of January 2007 tomorrow! i dunno what to expect next year but i really want to go to Rain’s concert! My new year resolution?? To do my very best in all the projects, submit projects ON time (i will really really try my best this time), do things faster,learn new things whenever i can, be a stronger person (mentally and emotionally), spend more time with my family members, do charity when there’s time and opportunity,teach/help other people , share knowledge and save money! I would really like to take up dancing again(maybe hip hop or belly dancing)….love dancing alot but i have problems with time management, what more with so many projects to do next sem.I think i’ll barely find time to sleep next year.My biggest regret was not getting a scholarship (coz i want to help save money for my parents). I feel really bad by being so dependent even when i’m 18.Haiz…I can’t believe i learnt a lot of things in 2006.It was a life changing year for me. Architecture, learning to take lrt, learning to drive, adobe photoshop, computer stuff like pendrive is not new to me anymore, got an mp3, learning to sketch, learning to make a mini tree house out of ice cream sticks…..I couldn’t believe how much i’ve learnt.Most importantly i’m more confident, braver, likes to take challenges and more sociable(i think)!Hahaha.Happy New Year! May all our wishes come true!!!!!!

Wahhhhh!!!!!!! Why is everyone going to study in overseas so soon!!!!I’m going to stay in Malaysia for another 2 more years if everything goes well. By the time my friends get their degrees, i’ll still be working on projects to b passed up.Damn!And by the time they start earning, i’ll b graduating….Haihz! I feel like i’m so much slower than the rest.I can imagine the class party after like 8 years….Everybody will be talking about their careers and big profits and big advancements in their companies or that some of them did some brain surgeries successfully or they had just won some tough cases in court or they have just found the cure for cancer or they interviewed the prime minister or they signed some records with sony bmg and have billions of fans or worse they are happily married with kids ….Nightmare!!!! They will ask ‘ What are you doing now Lee Hua?’ , my answer will probably be like " Err…. i just finished my second degree for architecture… and am now working in a small architecture firm… i don’t earn much, jz enough to feed myself. I’ll b trying my luck for the exams and interviews to get the Ar. title….but there are not many people that can pass the test actually…I spend most of my time doing projects at the office and i even stay the night there sometimes….Erm…i have not gone to salons or shopping malls for a long long time already…" See what i mean??? What to do…what to do….i’m just pursueing what i like and what i want to do next time.It’s hard to tell the future, maybe i can make a fortune out of my career? who knows? Or maybe i’m married to a billionaire and work part time in an architecture firm? Or maybe i’m just happy with the way i am?Hahaha….I was ok with architecture at the beginning…when i had the choice of choosing my next path in life, i knew i was going to do something related to design….fashion? love it but don’t noe how to sew  and don’t intend to learn it…graphic? Too many people are doing it and it’s ever changing, it might lose its shine next time like computing in these years…interior? Not bad…an architect can become an interior designer but an interior designer can’t be an architect, so why not choose the better one? ( I used to visit showhouses on weekends with my family, just to look at the deisgns…we even visited the same showhouse for 3 times…Lol!)So there goes…I grew to like architecture more day by day, of course the course has its ups and downs but most of the time, u’ll feel the satisfaction when u finish your projects. Somestimes u’ll think u have achieved something that you didn’t think you can do. A levels was out of the question since i dislike studying chem, bio and physics for another two years. Science is ok to me but i don’t need such in-depth knowledge n exams. I’m doing a course that is so different than other people that i find it hard to communicate with my ex classmates about college and stuff.But i have no regrets choosing architecture…..Hmm..dunno wat the future holds…I guess i’ll just take some chances and grab the opportunities that cross my path.

In Taiwan now! Yay! Everything’s fine. Beautiful sceneries….very little architectural buildings n very very long n tiring bus rides.Hoping for better journeys n exciting travels. lol! I’m missing all the people on malaysia now…Haiz. Still prefer japan or Korea, but the people here are not bad, they r all polite. Saw aome hot chicks hot guys.haha..Will bargain n buy lots in the popular nite markets! Ciao!